I am afraid of absolutes. I have been resisting the 'part 2' of 'diamonds and deliverance' because every time I start to write, I come up short, feeling like I'm just regurgitating what I'm supposed to say instead of expressing what I truly know or believe about the world. That and I'm afraid to alienate others (really myself from others) by sounding close-minded, judgmental, or illogical. I know there are "arguments" out there to be learned, but I keep feeling like, how do I know which of those are true, and why do I think they are?
If I claim to be a Christian - which I do - it all comes down to this: do I believe that the Bible is true? Do I believe in the sovereignty of Yahweh? Do I trust Him to guide and save and redeem the world? Do I believe that I and the rest of the world are hopelessly lost without His grace? That Jesus alone is the source of our salvation, strength, and security? Do I really believe any or all of that? Most days it doesn't feel like it, because I'm afraid I will be wrong about it all, but deep down I want to believe, because the world just doesn't make any sense any other way.